i don't wanna think about it

i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it
i don't wanna think about it

the truth

the truth is always the funniest punchline

gift bag

lay down
what you believe
love in lanes
candy cane
open your cage
fine line
call it love/hate
stuck in the middle

break out
bird is set free
sirens scream
out to sea
where could we be?
right now
the air is too sweet
stuck in the middle

burned out
sun with no shine
ant-hill in silhouette
happy time smile
gift bag
bleaching out time
and stuck in the middle

lay down
all that you are
come with me
i can see
you are a star
my world
isn't too far
it's stuck in the middle

riddle me this

i find it so hard to ignore what i feel
in my head in my head
when i'm lonely
i stare at the scene on the screen and i scream
and i scream but no-one is listening

i point to the signs that i find to be told to be told
that they're not worth questioning
so turn off the lights in my mind
live the life, live the lie
this worm's not for turning

i meant to say
is this the way, it's made to be

i've lived for love, like i should, like they would
had me good, had me right where they want me
burned it down to the ground, to the sound of the mouths
that i'd kissed, reading lists of my frailties

i wrote it to God, through the web, where i shed
all my tears, for the years of trying
and the answer was sex, to impress, to de-stress
i undressed just to fill in the emptiness

i meant to say
is this the way, it's made to be

i've bitten my tongue, to become, your idea of fun
now i'm tasting the blood again
read the lines, read the lines, do the lines
wake up numb, wake up dumb, don't you know what you're missing

i meant to say
i won't be staying
i meant to say
i won't be staying
i meant to say
i won't be staying
i meant to say
i won't be staying

8.35 from lancaster

i'm sat on the train again
and once more in secret
i'm wishing it's the wrong one
i'm going to sleep and when i wake
i hope to be in some exotic place
far away from the shit
and the every day, inane

smith and samson

i've been out walking and ive seen their disbelief
been to the river i've seen needles in a tree
my name is smith and i can sing my song so blue
cos tonight i lost myself, in you

i waited out so long the sun ran out of shine
i thought of how you wrote, these are the Happy Times
my name is samson and i tore it down it's true
cos tonight i lost myself, in you
and i am a fool
cos you know i never learn
no i never learn

cos i don't believe in love
i just don't believe in love
no more
i don't believe in love
i just don't believe in love
no more

my name is smith and i can sing my song so blue
cos tonight i lost myself in you

sponge

she called me a sponge
she didn't mean me no harm
no one ever does but
it doesn't mean we don't get hurt
i promised her that one day
we'd buy an ant farm and
she handed me a gift bag
labelled "happy times"

behind closed doors (working title)

she wanted
just a little space
where his heart wouldn't beat so bitter
cross her cold face
promise
a sleeve and an ace
now the air hung about her like a dark cherry cloud like a
black veil
just for a second i could have sworn she whispered "take me away"

she drives home every night
her sweet soul suicide
cos she don't wanna be alone
she burns like candlelight
her smoke screen by design
cos she don't wanna be alone

she wanted
a drink to kiss the pain
but the warm velvet spread/swell of the liquor's kicking cold again
takes just a minute to recall the health that she gave away

you're not the only one

you're not the one i'm thinking of
you know i don't believe in love
so sue me if that's not enough
you're not the only one

i spilled it from the very start
i painted you a broken heart
and said we'd only fall apart
you're not the only one

i'm waking up
to some old song
the kind that always turned me on
you're not the one
you're not the only one
i'm waking up
and one by one
i'm fixing up what you've undone
you're not the one
you're not the only one

you're taking me all out to sea
and washing me in memories
but i don't wanna stay that clean
you're not the only one

i laid it out to you before
i swear i laid it at your door
you stuck it to my very core
you're not the only one

========

mouth full of blood
from doing things i never should
you're not the one
not the one
no more

thoughts from the passenger seat

wind washes through my hair from the open car window and brings with it an overwhelming rush of cleanliness, even the petrol-stained air smells like dark cherry mocha.
meanwhile a plastic pouch burns a hole through the leather of my jacket as i muse over the time i looked after myself and did things for the good of my health.

set in stone

set in stone is the seed of doubt
splitting hairs just to root it out
idle minds drink themselves to sleep
idolise all that they can't keep